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a　wolf　would　be　about　perfect。〃　

I　laughed　at　the　way　it　sounded。　〃Yeah；　I　can't　get　mine　to　shut　up；　either。〃　

〃In　your　case；　that　would　mean　you're　insane。　Of　course；　I　already　knew　that　you　were　insane；〃　he　
teased。　

〃Thanks。〃　

〃Insanity　is　probably　easier　than　sharing　a　pack　mind。　Crazy　people's　voices　don't　send　babysitters　to　
watch　them。〃　

〃Huh？〃　

〃Sam's　out　there。　And　some　of　the　others。　Just　in　case；　you　know。〃　

〃In　case　of　what？〃　

〃In　case　I　can't　keep　it　together；　something　like　that。　In　case　I　decide　to　trash　the　party。〃　He　flashed　a　
quick　

smile　at　what　was　probably　an　appealing　thought　to　him。　〃But　I'm　not　here　to　ruin　your　wedding；　Bella。　



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I'm　here　to　。。　。〃　He　trailed　off。　

〃To　make　it　perfect。〃　

〃That's　a　tall　order。〃　

〃Good　thing　you're　so　tall。〃　

He　groaned　at　my　bad　joke　and　then　sighed。　〃I'm　just　here　to　be　your　friend。　Your　best　friend；　one　last　
time。〃　

〃Sam　should　give　you　more　credit。〃　

〃Well；　maybe　I'm　being　oversensitive。　Maybe　they'd　be　here　anyway；　to　keep　an　eye　on　Seth。　There　are　
a　lot　of　vampires　here。　Seth　doesn't　take　that　as　seriously　as　he　should。〃　

〃Seth　knows　that　he's　not　in　any　danger。　He　understands　the　Cullens　better　than　Sam　does。〃　

〃Sure；　sure；〃　Jacob　said；　making　peace　before　it　could　turn　into　a　fight。　

It　was　strange　to　have　him　being　the　diplomat。　

〃Sorry　about　those　voices；〃　I　said。　〃Wish　I　could　make　it　better。〃　In　so　many　ways。　

〃It's　not　that　bad。　I'm　just　whining　a　little。〃　

〃You're。。。　happy？〃　

〃Close　enough。　But　enough　about　me。　You're　the　star　today。〃　He　chuckled。　〃I　bet　you're　just　loving　
that。　Center　of　attention。〃　

〃Yeah。　Can't　get　enough　attention。〃　

He　laughed　and　then　stared　over　my　head。　With　pursed　lips；　he　studied　the　shimmering　glow　of　the　
reception　party；　the　graceful　whirl　of　the　dancers；　the　fluttering　petals　falling　from　the　garlands；　I　looked　
with　him。　It　all　seemed　very　distant　from　this　black；　quiet　space。　Almost　like　watching　the　white　flurries　
swirling　inside　a　snow　globe。　

〃I'll　give　them　this　much；〃　he　said。　〃They　know　how　to　throw　a　party。〃　

〃Alice　is　an　unstoppable　force　of　nature。〃　

He　sighed。　〃Song's　over。　Do　you　think　1　get　another　one？　Or　is　that　asking　too　much？〃　

I　tightened　my　hand　around　his。　〃You　can　have　as　many　dances　as　you　want。〃　

He　laughed。　〃That　would　be　interesting。　I　think　I'd　better　stick　with　two；　though。　Don't　want　to　start　
talk。〃　

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〃You'd　think　I'd　be　used　to　telling　you　goodbye　by　now；〃　he　murmured。　

I　tried　to　swallow　the　lump　in　my　throat；　but　I　couldn't　force　it　down。　

Jacob　looked　at　me　and　frowned。　He　wiped　his　fingers　across　my　cheek；　catching　the　tears　there。　

〃You're　not　supposed　to　be　the　one　crying；　Bella。〃　

〃Everyone　cries　at　weddings；〃　I　said　thickly。　

〃This　is　what　you　want；　right？〃　

〃Right。〃　

〃Then　smile。〃　

I　tried。　He　laughed　at　my　grimace。　

Tm　going　to　try　to　remember　you　like　this。　Pretend　that。。。〃　

〃That　what？That　I　died？〃　

He　clenched　his　teeth。　He　was　struggling　with　himself—with　his　decision　to　make　his　presence　here　a　gift　
and　not　a　judgment。　I　could　guess　what　he　wanted　to　say。　

〃No；〃　he　finally　answered。　〃But　I'll　see　you　this　way　in　my　head。　Pink　cheeks。　Heartbeat。　Two　left　feet。　
All　of　that。〃　

I　deliberately　stomped　on　his　foot　as　hard　as　I　could。　

He　smiled。　〃That's　my　girl。〃　

He　started　to　say　something　else　and　then　snapped　his　mouth　closed。　Struggling　again；　teeth　gritted　
against　the　words　he　didn't　want　to　say。　

My　relationship　with　Jacob　used　to　be　so　easy。　Natural　as　breathing。　But　since　Edward　had　e　back　
into　my　life；　it　was　a　constant　strain。　Because—in　Jacob's　eyes—by　choosing　Edward；　I　was　choosing　a　
fate　that　was　worse　than　death；　or　at　least　equivalent　to　it。　

〃What　is　it；　Jake？　Just　tell　me。　You　can　tell　me　anything。〃　

〃I—I。。。　I　don't　have　anything　to　tell　you。〃　

〃Oh　please。　Spit　it　out。〃　

〃It's　true。It's　not。。。　it's—it's　a　question。　It's　something　I　want　you　to　tell　me〃　

〃Ask　me。〃　

He　struggled　for　another　minute　and　then　exhaled。　〃I　shouldn't。　It　doesn't　matter。　I'm　just　morbidly　
curious。〃　



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Because　I　knew　him　so　well；　I　understood。　

〃It's　not　tonight；　Jacob；〃　I　whispered。　

Jacob　was　even　more　obsessed　with　my　humanity　than　Edward。　He　treasured　every　one　of　my　
heartbeats；　knowing　that　they　were　numbered。　

〃Oh；〃　he　said；　trying　to　smother　his　relief。　〃Oh。〃　

A　new　song　started　playing；　but　he　didn't　notice　the　change　this　time。　

〃When？〃　he　whispered。　

〃I　don't　know　for　sure。　A　week　or　two；　maybe。〃　

His　voice　changed；　took　on　a　defensive；　mocking　edge。　〃What's　the　holdup？〃　

〃I　just　didn't　want　to　spend　my　honeymoon　writhing　in　pain。〃　

〃You'd　rather　spend　it　how？　Playing　checkers？　Ha　ha。〃　

〃Very　funny。〃　

〃Kidding；　Bells。　But；　honestly；　I　don't　see　the　point。　You　can't　have　a　real　honeymoon　with　your　
vampire；　so　why　go　through　the　motions？　Call　a　spade　a　spade。　This　isn't　the　first　time　you've　put　this　off。　
That's　a　good　thing；　though；〃　he　said；　suddenly　earnest。　〃Don't　be　embarrassed　about　it。〃　

〃I'm　not　putting　anything　off；〃　I　snapped。　〃And　yes　I　can　have　a　real　honeymoon！　I　can　do　anything　I　
want！　Butt　out！〃　

He　stopped　our　slow　circling　abruptly。　For　a　moment；　I　wondered　if　he'd　finally　noticed　the　music　
change；　and　I　scrambled　in　my　head　for　a　way　to　patch　up　our　little　tiff　before　he　said　goodbye　to　me。　
We　shouldn't　part　on　this　note。　

And　then　his　eyes　bulged　wide　with　a　strange　kind　of　confused　horror。　

〃What？〃　he　gasped。　〃What　did　you　say？〃　

〃About　what。。。　？　Jake？　What's　wrong？〃　

〃What　do　you　mean？　Have　a　real　honeymoon？　While　you're　still　human？　Are　you　kidding？　That's　a　sick　
joke；　Bella！〃　

I　glared　at　him。　〃I　said　butt　out；　Jake。　This　is　so　not　your　business。　I　shouldn't　have。。。　we　shouldn't　even　
be　talking　about　this。　It's　private—〃　

His　enormous　hands　gripped　the　tops　of　my　arms；　wrapping　all　the　way　around；　fingers　overlapping。　

〃Ow；　Jake！　Let　go！〃　




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He　shook　me。　

〃Bella！　Have　you　lost　your　mind？　You　can't　be　that　stupid！　Tell　me　you're　joking！〃　

He　shook　me　again。　His　hands；　tight　as　tourniquets；　were　quivering；　sending　vibrations　deep　into　my　
bones。　

〃Jake—stop！〃　

The　darkness　was　suddenly　very　crowded。　

〃Take　your　hands　off　her！〃　Edward's　voice　was　cold　as　ice；　sharp　as　razors。　

Behind　Jacob；　there　was　a　low　snarl　from　the　black　night；　and　then　another；　overlapping　the　first。　

〃Jake；　bro；　back　away；〃　I　heard　Seth　Clearwater　urge。　〃You're　losing　it。〃　

Jacob　seemed　frozen　as　he　was；　his　horrified　eyes　wide　and　staring。　

〃You'll　hurt　her；〃　Seth　whispered。　〃Let　her　go。〃　

〃Now！〃　Edward　snarled。　

Jacob's　hands　dropped　to　his　sides；　and　the　sudden　gush　of　blood　through　my　waiting　veins　was　almost　
painful。　Before　I　could　register　more　than　that；　cold　hands　replaced　the　hot　ones；　and　the　air　was　
suddenly　whooshing　past　me。　

I　blinked；　and　I　was　on　my　feet　a　half　dozen　feet　away　from　where　I'd　been　standing。　Edward　was　
tensed　in　front　of　me。　There　were　two　enormous　wolves　braced　between　him　and　Jacob；　but　they　did　not　
seem　aggressive　to　me。　More　like　they　were　trying　to　prevent　the　fight。　

And　Seth—gangly；　fifteenyearold　Seth—had　his　long　arms　around　Jacob's　shaking　body；　and　he　was　
tugging　him　away。　If　Jacob　phased　with　Seth　so　close。。。　

〃C'mon；　Jake。　Let's　go。〃　

〃I'll　kill　you；〃　Jacob　said；　his　voice　so　choked　with　rage　that　it　was　low　as　a　whisper。　His　eyes；　focused　
on　

Edward；　burned　with　fury。　〃I'll　kill　you　myself！　I'll　do　it　now！〃　He　shuddered　convulsively。　

The　biggest　wolf；　the　black　one；　growled　sharply。　

〃Seth；　get　out　of　the　way；〃　Edward　hissed。　

Seth　tugged　on　Jacob　again。　Jacob　was　so　bewildered　with　rage　that　Seth　was　able　to　yank　him　a　few　
feet　farther　back。　〃Don't　do　it；　Jake。　Walk　away。　C'mon。〃　

Sam—the　bigger　wolf；　the　black　one—joined　Seth　then。　He　put　his　massive　head　against　Jacob's　chest　
and　shoved。　




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The　three　of　them—Seth　towing；　Jake　trembling；　Sam　pushing—disappeared　swiftly　into　the　darkness。　

The　other　wolf　stared　after　them。　I　wasn't　sure；　in　the　weak　light；　about　the　color　of　his　fur—chocolate　
brown；　maybe？　Was　it　Quil；　then？　

Tm　sorry；〃　I　whispered　to　the　wolf。　

〃It'sall　right　now；Bella；〃　Edward　murmured。　

The　wolf　looked　at　Edward。　His　gaze　was　not　friendly。　Edward　gave　him　one　cold　nod。The　wolf　huffed　
and　then　turned　to　follow　the　others；　vanishing　as　they　had。　

〃All　right；〃　Edward　said　to　himself；　and　then　he　looked　at　me。　〃Let's　get　back。〃　

〃But　Jake—〃　

〃Sam　has　him　in　hand。　He's　gone。〃　

〃Edward；　I'm　so　sorry。　Iwas　stupid—〃　

〃You　did　nothing　wrong—〃　

〃I　have　such　a　big　mouth！　Why　would　I。。。　I　shouldn't　have　let　him　get　to　me　like　that。　What　was　I　
thinking？〃　

〃Don't　worry。〃　He　touched　my　face。　〃We　need　to　get　back　to　the　reception　before　someone　notices　our　
absence。〃　

I　shook　my　head；　trying　to　reorient　myself。　Before　someone　noticed？　Had　anyone　missed　that？　

Then；　as　I　thought　about　it；　I　realized　the　confrontation　that　had　seemed　so　catastrophic　to　me　had；　in　
reality；　been　very　quiet　and　short　here　in　the　shadows。　

〃Give　me　two　seconds；〃　I　pleaded。　

My　insides　were　chaotic　with　panic　and　grief；　but　that　didn't　matter—only　the　outside　mattered　right　
now。　Putting　on　a　good　show　was　something　I　knew　I　had　to　master。　

〃My　dress？〃　

〃You　look　fine。　Not　a　hair　out　of　place。〃　

I　took　two　deep　breaths。　〃Okay。　Let's　go。〃　

He　put　his　arms　around　me　and　led　me　back　to　the　light。　When　we　passed　under　the　twinkle　lights；　he　
spun　me　gently　onto　the　dance　floor。　We　melted　in　with　the　other　dancers　as　if　our　dance　had　never　been　
interrupted。　

I　glanced　around　at　the　guests；　butno　one　seemed　shocked　or　frightened。　Only　the　very　palest　faces　
there　showed　any　signs　of　stress；　and　they　hid　it　well。　Jasper　and　Emmett　were　on　the　edge　of　the　floor；　
close　together；　



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and　I　guessed　that　they　had　been　nearby　during　the　confrontation。　

〃Are　you—〃　

Tm　fine；〃　I　promised。　〃I　can't　believe　I　did　that。　What's　wrong　with　me？〃　

〃Nothing　is　wrong　with　you〃　

I'd　been　so　glad　to　see　Jacob　here。　I　knew　the　sacrifice　it　had　taken　him。　And　then　I'd　ruined　it；　turned　
his　gift　into　a　disaster。　I　should　be　quarantined。　

But　my　idiocy　would　not　ruin　anything　else　tonight。　I　would　put　this　away；　shove　it　in　a　drawer　and　lock　it　
up　to　deal　with　later。　There　would　be　plenty　of　time　to　flagellate　myself　for　this；　and　nothing　I　could　do　
now　would　help。　

〃It's　over；〃　I　said。　〃Let's　not　think　of　it　again　tonight。〃　

I　expected　a　quick　agreement　from　Edward；　but　he　was　silent。　

〃Edward？〃　

He　closed　his　eyes　and　touched　his　forehead　to　mine。　〃Jacob　is　right；〃　he　whispered。　〃What　am　I　
thinking？〃　

〃He　is　not。〃　I　tried　to　keep　my　face　smooth　for　the　watching　crowd　of　friends。　〃Jacob　is　way　too　
prejudiced　to　see　anything　clearly。〃　

He　mumbled　something　low　that　sounded　almost　like　〃should　let　him　kill　me　for　even　thinking　。。。〃　

〃Stop　it；〃　I　said　fiercely。　I　grabbed　his　face　in　my　hands　and　waited　until　he　opened　his　eyes。　〃You　and　
me。　That's　the　only　thing　that　matters。　The　only　thing　you're　allowed　to　think　about　now。　Do　you　hear　
me？〃　

〃Yes；〃　he　sighed。　

〃Forget　Jacob　came。〃　I　could　do　that。　I　would　60　that。　〃For　me。　Promise　that　you'll　let　this　go。〃　

He　stared　into　my　eyes　for　a　moment　before　answering。　〃I　promise。〃　

〃Thank　you。　Edward；　I'm　not　afraid。〃　

〃I　am；〃　he　whispered。　

〃Don't　be。〃　I　took　deep　breath　and　smiled。　〃By　the　way；　I　love　you。〃　

He　smiled　just　a　little　in　return。　〃That's　why　we're　here。〃　

〃You're　monopolizing　the　bride；〃　Emmett　said；　ing　up　behind　Edward's　shoulder。　〃Let　me　dance　with　
my　little　sister。　This　could　be　my　last　chance　to　make　her　blush。〃　He　laughed　loudly；　as　unaffected　as　he　
usually　was　by　any　serious　atmosphere。　



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It　turned　out　there　were　actually　lots　of　people　I　hadn't　danced　with　yet；　and　that　gave　me　a　chance　to　
truly　pose　and　resolve　myself。　When　Edward　claimed　me　again；　I　found　that　the　Jacobdrawer　was　
shut　nice　and　tight。　As　he　wrapped　his　arms　around　me；　I　was　able　to　unearth　my　earlier　sense　of　joy；　my　
certainty　that　everything　in　my　life　was　in　the　right　place　tonight。　I　smiled　and　laid　my　head　against　his　
chest。　His　arms　tightened。　

〃I　could　get　used　to　this；〃　I　said。　

〃Don't　tell　me　you've　gotten　over　your　dancing　issues？〃　

〃Dancing　isn't　so　bad—with　you。　But　I　was　thinking　more　of　this；〃—and　I　pressed　myself　to　him　even　
tighter—〃of　never　having　to　let　you　go。〃　

〃Never；〃　he　promised；　and　he　leaned　down　to　kiss　me。　

It　was　a　serious　kind　of　kiss—intense；　slow　but　building。。。。　

I'd　pretty　much　forgotten　where　I　was　when　I　heard　Alice　call；　〃Bella！　It's　time！〃　

I　felt　a　brief　flicker　of　irritation　with　my　new　sister　for　the　interruption。　

Edward　ignored　her；　his　lips　were　hard　against　mine；　more　urgent　than　before。　My　heart　broke　into　a　
sprint　and　my　palms　were　slick　against　his　marble　neck。　

〃Do　you　want　to　miss　your　plane？〃　Alice　demanded；　right　next　to　me　now。　〃I'm　sure　you'll　have　a　lovely　
honeymoon　camped　out　in　the　airport　waiting　for　another　flight。〃　

Edward　turned　his　face　slightly　to　murmur；　〃Go　away；　Alice；〃　and　then　pressed　his　lips　to　mine　again。　

〃Bella；　do　you　want　to　wear　that　dress　on　the　airplane？〃　she　demanded。　

I　wasn't　really　paying　much　attention。　At　the　moment；　I　simply　didn't　care。　

Alice　growled　quietly。　〃I'll　tell　her　where　you're　taking　her；　Edward。　So　help　me；　I　will。〃　

He　froze。　Then　he　lifted　his　face　from　mine　and　glared　at　his　favorite　sister。　〃You're　awfully　small　to　be　so　
hugelyirritating。〃　

〃I　didn't　pick　out　the　perfect　goingaway　dress　to　have　it　wasted；〃　she　snapped　back；　taking　my　hand。　
〃e　with　me；　Bella。〃　

I　tugged　against　her　hold；　stretching　up　on　my　toes　to　kiss　him　one　more　time。　She　jerked　my　arm　
impatiently；　hauling　me　away　from　him。　There　were　a　few　chuckles　from　the　watching　guests。　I　gave　up　
then　and　let　her　lead　me　into　the　empty　house。　

She　looked　annoyed。　

〃Sorry；　Alice；〃　I　apologized。　

〃I　don't　blame　you；　Bella。〃　She　sighed。　〃You　don't　seem　to　be　able　help　yourself。〃　



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I　giggled　at　her　martyred　expression；　and　she　scowled。　

〃Thank　you；　Alice。　It　was　the　most　beautiful　wedding　anyone　ever　had；〃　I　told　her　earnestly。　〃Everything　
was　exactly　right。　You're　the　best；　smartest；　most　talented　sister　in　the　whole　world。〃　

That　thawed　her　out；　she　smiled　a　huge　smile。　〃I'm