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task�察�thereby forcing them to cooperate!on which account they couldn¨t hide
their distaste even now。 Seeing this inspired in me a love for the Sultan that
went beyond mere awe。 A servant boy served coffee and we sat for a while。
I was told that Enishte Effendi had a nephew named Black Effendi whom
he¨d cultivated�察�a man trained in illumination and book arts。 Had I met him�拭�I
remained silent。 A short while ago�察 �upon the invitation of his Enishte�察 �Black
had returned from the Persian front�察 �where he was under Serhat Pasha¨s
mand!the mander shot me a look of suspicion。 Here�察�in Istanbul�察�he
worked himself into his Enishte¨s good graces and learned the story of the
book whose creation Enishte was overseeing。 Black claimed that after Elegant
Effendi was killed�察 �Enishte suspected one of the master miniaturists who
visited him at night to work on this manuscript。 He¨d seen the illustrations
these masters had made and said that Enishte¨s murderer!the selfsame
painter who stole the Sultan¨s illustration with the lion¨s share of gold leaf!
was one of them。 For two days�察 �this young Black Effendi had concealed the
death of Enishte from the palace and the Head Treasurer。 Within that very
two´day period�察�he¨d rushed ahead with a marriage to Enishte¨s daughter�察�an
ethically and religiously dubious affair�察�and settled into Enishte¨s house�察�thus�察�
both the men before me considered Black a suspect。
^If their houses and workplaces are searched and the missing page turns up
with one of my master miniaturists�察�Black¨s innocence will be established at
once�察院 �I said。 ^Frankly�察 �however�察 �I can tell you that my dearest children�察 �my
divinely inspired miniaturists�察�whom I¨ve known since they were apprentices�察�
are incapable of taking the life of another man。 ̄
^As for Olive�察�Stork and Butterfly�察院�said the mander�察�mockingly using
the nicknames I¨d affectionately given to them�察 �we intend to b their
homes�察 �haunts�察 �places of work and�察 �if applicable�察 �shops�察 �leaving no stone
unturned。 And that includes Black´ ̄ His expression bespoke resignation�此�
^Given such troublesome circumstances�察�thank God�察�the judge has granted us
permission to resort to torture if necessary during the interrogation of Black
Effendi。 Torture was deemed lawfully permissible because a second murder
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had been mitted against someone with a link to the miniaturists guild�察�
making suspects of them all�察�from apprentice to master。 ̄
I mulled this over silently�此�1。 The phrase ^lawfully permissible ̄ made clear
that Our Sultan wasn¨t the one who¨d granted the permission for torture。 2。
Because all the miniaturists were under suspicion of double murder in the eyes
of the judge�察 �and because I�察 �though Head Illuminator�察 �had been unable to
identify the criminal in our midst�察 �I�察 �too�察 �was suspect。 3。 I understood that
they wanted my explicit or implicit approval to go ahead with the torture of
my beloved Butterfly�察�Olive�察�Stork and the others�察�all of whom�察�in recent years�察�
had betrayed me。
^Since Our Sultan desires both the satisfactory pletion of the Book of
Festivities and this book!which is evidently only half finished�察院�said the Head
Treasurer�察 �we¨re worried that torture might damage the masters¨ hands and
eyes�察�destroying their agility。 ̄ He faced me。 ^Isn¨t this so�拭院�
^There was similar worry over another incident recently�察院 �said the
mander brusquely。 ^A goldsmith and a jeweler who did repairs fell sway
to the Devil。 They were childishly enchanted with a ruby´handled coffee cup
belonging to Our Sultan¨s younger sister Nejmiye Sultan�察 �and ended up
stealing it。 Since the theft of the cup�察�which overwhelmed Our Sultan¨s sister
with grief!she was quite fond of the piece!occurred in the ┨sk┨dar Palace�察�
the Sovereign appointed me to investigate。 It became apparent that both Our
Sultan and Nejmiye Sultan wanted no harm to e to the eyes and fingers of
the master gold´ and jewelry smiths lest their skills be affected。 So�察�I had all
the master jewelry smiths stripped naked and thrown into the freezing pool in
the yard among pieces of ice and frogs。 Periodically�察�I¨d have them taken out
and lashed forcefully�察 �taking care that their faces and hands remained
unharmed。 Within a short period�察�the jeweler who¨d been duped by the Devil
confessed and accepted his punishment。 Despite the ice´cold water�察�the frozen
air and all the lashings�察�no lasting injury came to the eyes and fingers of the
master jewelers because they were pure of heart。 Even the Sultan mentioned
that His sister was quite pleased with my work and that the jewelers were
working with more zeal now that the bad apple was out of the barrel。 ̄
I was certain that the mander would treat my master illustrators more
severely than he had the jewelers。 Though he had respect for Our Sultan¨s
enthusiasm for illuminated manuscripts�察 �like many others�察 �he deemed
calligraphy the only respectable art form�察 �belittling embellishment and
illustration as flirtations with heresy�察�fit for women and deserving of nothing
but rebuke。 In order to provoke me�察�he said�察 �While you¨ve been absorbed in
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your work�察 �your beloved miniaturists have already begun scheming to see
who¨ll bee Head Miniaturist upon your death。 ̄
Was this gossip I hadn¨t already heard�拭�Had he informed me of something
new�拭�Restraining myself�察�I didn¨t respond。 The Head Treasurer was more than
aware of the fury I felt toward him for missioning a manuscript from that
deceased half´wit behind my back�察�and toward my ingrate miniaturists�察�who¨d
secretly prepared these illustrations to curry favor and earn a few extra silver
coins。
I caught myself pondering the methods of torture that might be inflicted。
They wouldn¨t resort to flaying during the interrogation�察 �because that
inevitably leads to death。 They wouldn¨t impale anyone�察�either�察�as they do with
rebels�察�because that¨s used as a deterrent。 Cracking and splintering the fingers�察�
arms or legs of these miniaturists was also out of the question。 Of course�察�the
removal of an eye!which I gathered was a measure of increasing frequency
these days�察�to judge by the growing numbers of one´eyed people on the streets
of Istanbul!would be inappropriate for master artists。 So�察�as I imagined my
dear miniaturists in a secluded corner of the Royal Private Garden�察�there in the
ice´cold pool among the water lilies�察�shivering violently and glaring hatefully at
one another�察�I had the passing urge to laugh。 Nevertheless�察�it caused me agony
to imagine how Olive would shriek when his hindquarters were branded with
a hot iron and how dear Butterfly¨s skin would pale when he was shackled。 I
couldn¨t bear to conjure the scene of dear Butterfly!whose skill and love for
illumination brought tears to my eyes!as he was given the bastinado like a
mon thieving apprentice。 I just stood there dumbfounded and hollow。
My elderly mind was mute under the spell of its own internal silence。 There
was a time when we¨d paint together with a passion that made us forget
everything。
^These men are the most expert miniaturists serving Our Sultan�察院 �I said。
^Make certain no harm befalls them。 ̄
Pleased�察 �the Head Treasurer rose�察 �grabbed a number of pages from the
worktable at the other end of the room and arranged them in front of me。
Next�察�as if the room were dark�察�he placed beside me two large candle holders
whose portly tapers burned with bobbing and twittering flames so I could
study the paintings in question。
How might I explain what I saw as I moved the magnifying lens over them�拭�
I felt like laughing!and not because they were humorous。 I was incensed!it
seemed that Enishte Effendi had instructed my masters as follows�此 �Don¨t
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paint like yourselves�察�paint as if you were someone else。 ̄ He¨d forced them to
recall nonexistent memories�察�to conjure and paint a future�察�which they¨d never
want to live。 What was even more incredible was that they were killing each
other over this nonsense。
^By looking at these illustrations�察�can you tell me which miniaturist worked
on which picture�拭院�asked the Head Treasurer。
^Yes�察院�I said angrily。 ^Where did you find these paintings�拭院�
^Black brought them of his own accord and left them with me�察院�said the
Head Treasurer。 ^He¨s bent on proving that he and his late Enishte are
innocent。 ̄
^During the interrogation�察�torture him�察院�I said。 ^That way we¨ll learn what
other secrets our late Enishte was harboring。 ̄
^We¨ve sent for him�察院 �said the mander of the Imperial Guard。
^Afterward�察�we¨ll thoroughly search the house of that newlywed。 ̄
Both their faces were strangely illuminated�察 �a flicker of fear and awe
overcame them�察�and they snapped to their feet。
Without having to turn around I knew we were in the presence of His
Excellency�察�Our Sultan�察�the Refuge of the World。
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I AM ESTHER
Oh�察 �how wonderful it is to cry along with the rest of them� �While the men
were at the funeral of my dear Shekure¨s father�察 �the women�察 �kith and kin�察�
spouses and friends�察 �gathered in the house and shed their tears�察 �and I�察 �too�察�
beat my chest in mourning and wept with them。 Now wailing in unison with
the pretty maiden beside me�察�leaning on her and swaying back and forth�察�now
crying in a pletely different frame of mind�察 �I was deeply touched by my
own woes and pitiful life。 If I could cry like this just once a week�察�I thought�察�I
might forget how I had to roam the streets all day just to make ends meet�察�
forget being mocked for my weight and my Jewishness and be reborn an even
more chattermouth Esther。
I like social gatherings because I can eat to my heart¨s content�察�and�察�at the
same time�察 �forget that I¨m the black sheep of the crowd。 I love the baklava�察�
mint candy�察�marzipan bread and fruit leather of holidays�察�the pilaf with meat
and the tea´cup pastries of circumcision ceremonies�察 �drinking sour´cherry
sherbet at celebrations held by the Sultan in the Hippodrome�察 �eating
everything at weddings�察 �and tossing down the sesame�察 �honey or variously
flavored condolence halvas sent by the neighbors at wakes。
I quietly slipped into the hallway�察 �put on my shoes and went downstairs。
Before I turned into the kitchen�察 �I grew curious about an odd noise ing
through the half´open door of the room next to the stable。 I took a few steps
in that direction and glanced inside to discover that Shevket and Orhan had
tied up the son of one of the women mourners and were in the midst of
painting his face with their late grandfather¨s paints and brushes。 ^If you try
to escape�察�we¨ll hit you like this�察院�Shevket said and slapped the boy。
^My dear child�察�play nice and gentle now�察�don¨t hurt each other�察�all right�拭院�
I said in a voice as velvety as I could muster。
^Mind your own affairs� 院�Shevket shouted。
I noticed the small�察 �frightened�察 �blond´haired sister of the boy they were
tormenting standing beside them�察 �and for whatever reason�察 �I felt for her
pletely。 Forget about it�察�now�察�Esther� �
In the kitchen�察�Hayriye peered at me suspiciously。
^I¨ve cried myself dry�察�Hayriye�察院�I said。 ^For God¨s sake�察�pour me a glass of
water。 ̄
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She did so�察 �silently。 Before I drank it�察 �I stared into her eyes�察 �swollen from
weeping。
^Poor Enishte Effendi�察 �they say he was already dead before Shekure¨s
wedding�察院�I mented。 ^People¨s mouths aren¨t like bags that can be cinched
up�察�some even claim there was foul play involved。 ̄
In an exaggerated gesture�察�she looked down at her toes。 Then she lifted her
head and without looking at me said�察 �May God protect us from baseless
slander。 ̄
Her first gesture confirmed what I¨d said�察�and moreover the cadence of her
words conveyed that they were spoken under duress!to hide the truth。
^What¨s going on�拭院�I asked abruptly�察�whispering as if I were her confidant。
Indecisive Hayriye had of course understood that there was no hope of
claiming any authority over Shekure after Enishte Effendi¨s death。 And a short
while ago�察�she was the one mourning with the most heartfelt tears。
^What¨s to bee of me�察�now�拭院�she said。
^Shekure holds you in high regard�察院 �I said in my habit of giving news。
Lifting up the lids of the pots of halva lined up between the large clay jar of
grape molasses and the pickle jar�察 �sneaking a fingerful from one or simply
leaning over to smell another�察�I asked who¨d sent each of them。
Hayriye was rattling off who¨d sent which pot�此 �This one¨s from Kas��m
Effendi of Kayseri�察�this one�察�the assistant from the miniaturists division who
lives two streets over�察�that¨s from the locksmith�察�Left´Handed Hamdi�察�that one�察�
the young bride from Edirne! ̄ when Shekure interrupted her。
^Kalbiye�察 �the late Elegant Effendi¨s widow�察 �didn¨t e to offer her
condolences�察�didn¨t send word and didn¨t send any halva either� 院�
She was heading from the kitchen door to the foot of the stairs。 I followed
her�察�knowing that she wanted to have a word with me in private。
^There was no ill´will between Elegant Effendi and my father。 On the day of
Elegant¨s funeral�察�we prepared our halva and sent it to them。 I want to know
what¨s going on�察院�Shekure said。
^I¨ll go right away and find out�察院�I said�察�anticipating Shekure¨s thoughts。
Since I kept our chat brief�察�she kissed me on the cheek。 As the cold of the
courtyard bit into us�察 �we embraced and stood there without moving。
Afterward�察�I stroked my beautiful Shekure¨s hair。
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^Esther�察�I¨m afraid�察院�she said。
^My dear�察 �don¨t be afraid�察院 �I said。 ^Every cloud has a silver lining。 Look�察�
you¨re finally married。 ̄
^But I¨m not sure I did the right thing�察院�she said。 ^That¨s why I haven¨t let
him get near me。 I spent the night beside my unfortunate father。 ̄
She opened her eyes wide and looked at me in a way that said�察 �You
understand what I mean。
^Hasan claims that your wedding is null in the eyes of the judge�察院 �I said。
^He sent this to you。 ̄
Though she said�察 �No more�察院�she immediately opened the small note and
read�察�but this time she didn¨t tell me what it contained。
She was right to be discreet�察�we weren¨t alone in the courtyard where we¨d
stood embracing�此 �Above us�察 �a smirking carpenter�察 �reattaching the shutter of
the hall window�察 �which fell and broke for some unknown reason that
morning�察 �was also eyeing both us and the women mourning inside。
Meanwhile�察�Hayriye cam
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