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ttention　at　all；　but　Carlisle　was　monitoring　my　every　breath。　Carefully；　Edward。　I　d　like　to　speak　to　you　alone；　if　you　don　t　mind；　she　insisted　in　a　low　voice。　I　wanted　to　tell　her　that　I　did　mind　very　much；　but　I　knew　I　would　have　to　do　this　eventually。　I　may　as　well　get　on　with　it。　I　was　full　of　so　many　conflicting　emotions　as　I　stalked　out　of　the　room；　listening　to　her　stumbling　footsteps　behind　me；　trying　to　keep　up。　I　had　a　show　to　put　on　now。　I　knew　the　role　I　would　play　I　had　the　character

down：　I　would　be　the　villain。　I　would　lie　and　ridicule　and　be　cruel。　It　went　against　all　my　better　impulses　the　human　impulses　that　I　d　clung　to　through　all　these　years。　I　d　never　wanted　to　deserve　trust　more　than　in　this　moment；　when　I　had　to　destroy　all　possibility　of　it。　It　made　it　worse　to　know　that　this　would　be　the　last　memory　she　would　have　of　me。　This　was　my　farewell　scene。　I　turned　on　her。　What　do　you　want？　I　asked　coldly。　She　cringed　back　slightly　from　my　hostility。　expression　that　had　haunted　me　Her　eyes　turned　bewildered；　the　You　owe　me　an　explanation；　she　said　in　a　small　voice；　her　ivory　face　blanched。　It　was　very　hard　to　keep　my　voice　harsh。　anything。　I　saved　your　life　I　don　t　owe　you　She　flinched　it　burned　like　acid　to　watch　my　words　hurt　her。　You　promised；　she　whispered。　Bella；　you　hit　your　head；　you　don　t　know　what　you　re　talking　about。　Her　chin　came　up　then。　There　s　nothing　wrong　with　my　head。　I　met　her　glare；　making　my　She　was　angry　now；　and　that　made　it　easier　for　me。　face　more　unfriendly。　What　do　you　want　from　me；　Bella？　I　want　to　know　the　truth。　I　want　to　know　why　I　m　lying　for　you。　What　she　wanted　was　only　fair　it　frustrated　me　to　have　to　deny　her。　What　do　you　think　happened？　I　nearly　growled　at　her。　Her　words　poured　out　in　a　torrent。　All　I　know　is　that　you　weren　t　anywhere　near　me　Tyler　didn　t　see　you；　either；　so　don　t　tell　me　I　hit　my　head　too　hard。　That　van　was　going　to　crush　us　both　and　it　didn　t；　and　your　hands　left　dents　in　the　side　of　it　and　you　left　a　dent　in　the　other　car；　and　you　re　not　hurt　at　all　and　the　van　should　have　smashed　my　legs；　but　you　were　holding　it　up　Suddenly；　she　clenched　her　teeth　together　and　her　eyes　were　glistening　with　unshed　tears。　I　stared　at　her；　my　expression　derisive；　though　what　I　really　felt　was　awe；　she　had　seen　everything。　You　think　I　lifted　a　van　off　you？　I　asked　sarcastically。　She　answered　with　one　stiff　nod。　My　voice　grew　more　mocking。　Nobody　will　believe　that；　you　know。　She　made　an　effort　to　control　her　anger。　When　she　answered　me；　she　spoke　each　word　with　slow　deliberation。　I　m　not　going　to　tell　anybody。

She　meant　it　I　could　see　that　in　her　eyes。　keep　my　secret。　Even　furious　and　betrayed；　she　would　Why？　The　shock　of　it　ruined　my　carefully　designed　expression　for　half　a　second；　and　then　I　pulled　myself　together。　Then　why　does　it　matter？　I　asked；　working　to　keep　my　voice　severe。　It　matters　to　me；　she　said　intensely。　a　good　reason　why　I　m　doing　it。　She　was　asking　me　to　trust　her。　line　I　could　not　cross。　My　voice　stayed　callous。　I　don　t　like　to　lie　so　there　d　better　be　But　this　was　a　Just　as　I　wanted　her　to　trust　me。　Can　t　you　just　thank　me　and　get　it　over　with？　Thank　you；　she　said；　and　then　she　fumed　silently；　waiting。　You　re　not　going　to　let　it　go；　are　you？　No。　In　that　to。　I　d　could　be　a　horror　case　I　couldn　t　tell　her　the　truth　if　I　wanted　to　and　I　didn　t　want　rather　she　made　up　her　own　story　than　know　what　I　was；　because　nothing　worse　than　the　truth　I　was　a　living　nightmare；　straight　from　the　pages　of　novel。　I　hope　you　enjoy　disappointment。　We　scowled　at　each　other。　It　was　odd　how　endearing　her　anger　was。　Like　a　furious　kitten；　soft　and　harmless；　and　so　unaware　of　her　own　vulnerability。　She　flushed　pink　and　ground　her　teeth　together　again。　Why　did　you　even　bother？　Her　question　wasn　t　one　that　I　was　expecting　or　prepared　to　answer。　I　lost　my　hold　on　the　role　I　was　playing。　I　felt　the　mask　slip　from　my　face；　and　I　told　her　this　one　time　the　truth。　I　don　t　know。　I　memorized　her　face　one　last　time　it　was　still　set　in　lines　of　anger；　the　blood　not　yet　faded　from　her　cheeks　and　then　I　turned　and　walked　away　from　her。

4。　Visions　I　went　back　to　school。　to　behave。　This　was　the　right　thing　to　do；　the　most　inconspicuous　way　By　the　end　of　the　day；　almost　all　the　other　students　had　returned　to　class；　too。　Just　Tyler　and　Bella　and　a　few　others　who　were　probably　using　the　accident　as　a　chance　to　ditch　remained　absent。　It　shouldn　t　be　so　hard　for　me　to　do　the　right　thing。　But；　all　afternoon；　I　was　gritting　my　teeth　against　the　urge　that　had　me　yearning　ditch；　too　in　order　to　go　find　the　girl　again。　Like　a　stalker。　An　obsessed　stalker。　An　obsessed　vampire　stalker。　School　today　was　somehow；　impossibly　even　more　boring　than　it　had　seemed　just　a　week　ago。　alike。　It　was　as　if　the　color　had　drained　from　the　bricks；　the　trees；　the　sky；　the　faces　around　me　I　stared　at　the　cracks　in　the　walls。　There　was　another　right　thing　I　should　be　doing　that　I　was　not。　Of　course；　it　was　also　a　wrong　thing。　It　all　depended　on　the　perspective　from　which　you　viewed　it。　From　the　perspective　of　a　Cullen　not　just　a　vampire；　but　a　Cullen；　someone　who　belonged　to　a　family；　such　a　rare　state　in　our　world　the　right　thing　to　do　would　have　gone　something　like　this：　I　m　surprised　to　see　you　in　class；　Edward。　awful　accident　this　morning。　I　heard　you　were　involved　in　that　A　friendly　smile。　I　didn　t　Yes；　I　was；　Mr。　Banner；　but　I　was　the　lucky　one。

get　hurt　at　all　How　are　they？　I　wish　I　could　say　the　same　for　Tyler　and　Bella。　I　think　Tyler　is　fine　just　some　superficial　scrapes　from　the　windshield　glass。　I　m　not　sure　about　Bella；　though。　A　worried　frown。　She　might　have　a　concussion。　I　heard　she　was　pretty　incoherent　for　a　while　seeing　things　even。　know　the　doctors　were　worried　That　s　how　it　should　have　gone。　That　s　what　I　owed　my　family。　I　heard　you　were　involved　in　that　I　I　m　surprised　to　see　you　in　class；　Edward。　awful　accident　this　morning。　I　wasn　t　hurt。　No　smile。　Mr。　Banner　shifted　his　weight　from　foot　to　foot；　unfortable。　Do　you　have　any　idea　how　Tyler　Crowley　and　Bella　Swan　are？　some　injuries　I　shrugged。　I　wouldn　t　know。　Er；　right　he　said；　my　cold　stare　making　his　I　heard　there　were　Mr。　Banner　cleared　his　throat。　voice　sound　a　bit　strained。　He　walked　quickly　back　to　the　front　of　classroom　and　began　his　lecture。　It　was　the　wrong　thing　to　do。　Unless　you　looked　at　it　from　a　more　obscure　point　of　view。　It　just　seemed　so　so　unchivalrous　to　slander　the　girl　behind　her　back；　especially　when　she　was　proving　more　trustworthy　than　I　could　have　dreamed。　She　hadn　t　said　anything　to　betray　me；　despite　having　good　reason　to　do　so。　Would　I　betray　her　when　she　had　done　nothing　but　keep　my　secret？　I　had　a　nearly　identical　conversation　with　Mrs。　Goff　just　in　Spanish　rather　than　in　English　and　Emmett　gave　me　a　long　look。　I　hope　you　have　a　good　explanation　for　what　happened　today。　warpath。　I　rolled　my　eyes　without　looking　at　him。　I　actually　had　e　up　with　a　perfectly　sound　explanation。　Just　suppose　I　hadn　t　done　anything　to　stop　the　van　from　crushing　the　girl　I　recoiled　from　that　thought。　But　if　she　had　been　hit；　if　she　d　been　mangled　and　bleeding；　the　red　fluid　spilling；　wasting　on　the　blacktop；　the　scent　of　the　fresh　blood　pulsing　through　the　air　I　shuddered　again；　but　not　just　in　horror。　Part　of　me　shivered　in　desire。　No；　I　would　not　have　been　able　to　watch　her　bleed　without　exposing　us　all　in　a　much　more　flagrant　and　shocking　way。　It　was　a　perfectly　sound　excuse　but　I　wouldn　t　use　it。　It　was　too　shameful。　Rose　is　on　the　And　I　hadn　t　thought　of　it　until　long　after　the　fact；　regardless。　Look　out　for　Jasper；　Emmett　went　on；　oblivious　to　my　reverie。　He　s　not　as

angry　but　he　s　more　resolved。　I　saw　what　he　meant；　allconsuming　that　a　SHEESH；　EDWARD！　GET　down　on　my　shoulder；　and　for　a　moment　the　room　swam　around　me。　My　rage　was　so　red　haze　clouded　my　vision。　I　thought　I　would　choke　on　it。　A　GRIP！　Emmett　shouted　at　me　in　his　head。　His　hand　came　holding　me　in　my　seat　before　I　could　jump　to　my　feet。　He　rarely　used　his　full　strength　there　was　rarely　a　need；　for　he　was　so　much　stronger　than　any　vampire　any　of　us　had　ever　encountered　but　he　used　it　now。　He　gripped　my　arm；　rather　than　pushing　me　down。　If　he　d　been　pushing；　the　chair　under　me　would　have　collapsed。　EASY！　He　ordered。　The　rage　burned　in　my　head。　I　just　thought　you　should　I　tried　to　calm　myself；　but　it　was　hard。　Jasper　s　not　going　to　do　anything　until　we　all　talk。　know　the　direction　he　s　headed。　I　concentrated　on　relaxing；　and　I　felt　Emmett　s　hand　loosen。　Try　not　to　make　more　of　a　spectacle　of　yourself。　is。　I　took　a　deep　breath　and　Emmett　released　me。　I　searched　around　the　room　routinely；　but　our　confrontation　had　been　so　short　and　silent　that　only　a　few　people　sitting　behind　Emmett　had　even　noticed。　None　of　them　knew　what　to　make　of　it；　and　they　shrugged　it　off。　The　Cullens　were　freaks　everyone　knew　that　already。　Damn；　kid；　you　re　a　mess；　Emmett　added；　sympathy　in　his　tone。　Bite　me；　I　muttered　under　my　breath；　and　I　heard　his　low　chuckle。　Emmett　didn　t　hold　grudges；　and　I　probably　ought　to　be　more　grateful　for　his　easy　going　nature。　But　I　could　see　that　Jasper　s　intentions　made　sense　to　Emmett；　that　he　was　considering　how　it　might　be　the　best　course　of　action。　The　rage　he　d　yet　cheated；　strength　simmered；　barely　under　control。　Yes；　Emmett　was　stronger　than　I　was；　but　to　beat　me　in　a　wrestling　match。　He　claimed　that　this　was　because　I　but　hearing　thoughts　was　just　as　much　a　part　of　who　I　was　as　his　immense　was　a　part　of　him。　We　were　evenly　matched　in　a　fight。　Was　I　going　to　fight　with　my　family　You　re　in　enough　trouble　as　it　A　fight？　Was　that　where　this　was　headed？　over　a　human　I　barely　knew？　I　thought　about　that　for　a　moment；　thought　about　the　fragile　feel　of　the　girl　s　body　in　my　arms　in　juxtaposition　with　Jasper；　Rose；　and　Emmett　supernaturally　strong　and　fast；　killing　machines　by　nature　Yes；　I　would　fight　for　her。　Against　my　family。　I　shuddered。　But　it　wasn　t　fair　to　leave　her　undefended　when　I　was　the　one　who　d　put　her　in　danger。　I　couldn　t　win　alone；　though；　not　against　the　three　of　them；　and　I　wondered　who　my　allies　would　be。

Carlisle；　certainly。　He　would　not　fight　anyone；　but　he　would　be　wholly　against　Rose　s　and　Jasper　s　designs。　That　might　be　all　I　needed。　I　would　see　Esme；　doubtful。　She　would　not　side　against　me　either；　and　she　would　hate　to　disagree　with　Carlisle；　but　she　would　be　for　any　plan　that　kept　her　family　intact。　Her　first　priority　would　not　be　rightness；　but　me。　If　Carlisle　was　the　soul　of　our　family；　then　Esme　was　the　heart。　He　gave　us　a　leader　who　deserved　following；　she　made　that　following　into　an　act　of　love。　We　all　loved　each　other　even　under　the　fury　I　felt　toward　Jasper　and　Rose　right　now；　even　planning　to　fight　them　to　save　the　girl；　I　knew　that　I　loved　them。　Alice　I　had　no　idea。　It　would　probably　depend　on　what　she　saw　ing。　side　with　the　winner；　I　imagined。　She　would　So；　I　would　have　to　do　this　without　help。　I　wasn　t　a　match　for　them　alone；　but　I　wasn　t　going　to　let　the　girl　be　hurt　because　of　me。　That　might　mean　evasive　action　My　rage　dulled　a　bit　with　the　sudden；　black　humor。　I　could　imagine　how　the　girl　would　react　to　my　kidnapping　her。　Of　course；　I　rarely　guessed　her　reactions　right　but　what　other　reaction　could　she　have　besides　terror？　I　wasn　t　sure　how　to　manage　that；　though　kidnapping　her。　I　wouldn　t　be　able　to　stand　being　close　to　her　for　very　long。　Perhaps　I　would　just　deliver　her　back　to　her　mother。　Even　that　much　would　be　fraught　with　danger。　For　her。　And　also　for　me；　I　realized　suddenly。　If　I　were　to　kill　her　by　accident　I　wasn　t　certain　exactly　how　much　pain　that　would　cause　me；　but　I　knew　it　would　be　multifaceted　and　intense。　The　time　passed　quickly　while　I　mulled　over　all　the　plications　ahead　of　me：　the　argument　waiting　for　me　at　home；　the　conflict　with　my　family；　the　lengths　I　might　be　forced　to　go　to　afterward　Well；　I　couldn　t　plain　that　life　outside　this　school　was　monotonous　any　more。　The　girl　had　changed　that　much。　Emmett　and　I　walked　silently　to　the　car　when　the　bell　rang。　He　was　worrying　about　me；　and　worrying　about　Rosalie。　He　knew　whose　side　he　would　have　to　choose　in　a　quarrel；　and　it　bothered　him。　The　others　were　waiting　for　us　in　the　car；　also　silent。　group。　Only　I　could　hear　the　shouting。　We　were　a　very　quiet　Idiot！　Lunatic！　Moron！　Jackass！　Selfish；　irresponsible　fool！　Rosalie　kept　up　a　constant　stream　of　insults　at　the　top　of　her　mental　lungs。　It　made　it　hard　to　hear　the　others；　but　I　ignored　her　as　best　I　could。　Emmett　was　right　about　Jasper。　He　was　sure　of　his　course。　Alice　was　troubled；　worrying　about　Jasper；　flipping　through　images　of　the　future。　No　matter　which　direction　Jasper　came　at　the　girl；　Alice　always　saw　me　there；　blocking　him。　Interesting　neither　Rosalie　nor　Emmett　was　with　him　in　these　visions。　So　Jasper　planned　to　work　alone。　That　would　even　things　up。　Jasper　was　the　best；　certainly　the　most　experienced　fighter　among　us。　advantage　lay　in　that　I　could　hear　his　moves　before　he　made　them。　My　one

I　had　never　fought　more　than　playfully　with　Emmett　or　Jasper　just　horsing　around。　I　felt　sick　at　the　thought　of　really　trying　to　hurt　Jasper　No；　not　that。　Just　to　block　him。　That　was　all。　I　concentrated　on　Alice；　memorizing　Jasper　s　different　avenues　of　attack。　As　I　did　that；　her　visions　shifted；　moving　further　and　further　away　from　the　Swan　s　house。　I　was　cutting　him　off　earlier　Stop　that；　Edward！　It　can　t　happen　this　way。　I　won　t　let　it。　I　didn　t　answer　her；　I　just　kept　watching。　She　began　searching　farther　ahead；　into　the　misty；　unsure　realm　of　distant　possibilities。　Everything　was　shadowy　and　vague。　The　entire　way　home；　the　charged　silence　did　not　lift。　I　parked　in　the　big　garage　off　the　house；　Carlisle　s　Mercedes　was　there；　next　to　Emmett　s　big　jeep；　Rose　s　M3　and　my　Vanquish。　I　was　glad　Carlisle　was　already　home　this　silence　would　end　explosively；　and　I　wanted　him　there　when　that　happened。　We　went　straight　to　the　dining　room。　The　room　was；　of　furnished　with　a　about　having　all　conference　room。　sometimes　it　was　course；　never　used　for　its　intended　purpose。　But　it　was　long　oval　mahogany　table　surrounded　by　chairs　we　were　scrupulous　the　correct　props　in　place。　Carlisle　liked　to　use　it　as　a　In　a　group　with　such　strong　and　disparate　personalities；　necessary　to　discuss　things　in　a　calm；　seated　manner。　I　had　a　feeling　that　the　setting　was　not　going　to　help　much　today。　Carlisle　sat　in　his　usual　seat　at　the　eastern　head　of　the　room。　him　they　held　hands　on　top　of　the　table。　Esme　s　eyes　were　on　me；　their　golden　depths　full　of　concern。　Stay。　It　was　her　only　thought。　Esme　was　beside　I　wished　I　could　smile　at　the　woman　who　was　truly　a　mother　to　me；　but　I　had　no　reassurances　for　her　now。　I　sat　on　Carlisle　s　other　side。　Esme　reached　around　him　to　put　her　free　hand　on　my　shoulder。　She　had　no　idea　of　what　was　about　to　start；　she　was　just　worrying　about　me。　Carlisle　had　a　better　sense　of　what　was　ing。　His　lips　were　pressed　tightly　together　and　his　forehead　was　creased。　The　expression　looked　too　old　for　his　young　face。　As　everyone　else　sat；　I　could　see　the　lines　being　drawn。　Rosalie　sat　directly　across　from　Carlisle；　on　the　other　end　of　the　long　table。　She　glared　at　me；　never　looking　away。　Emmett　sat　beside　her；　his　face　and　thoughts　both　wry。

Jasper　hesitated；　and　then　went　to　stand　against　the　wall　behind　Rosalie。　He　was　decided；　regardles