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I could¨ve located this place even without the brilliance of the falling snow�察�
for this spot�察�razed by fire�察�was where I¨d ended the life of my panion of 
twenty´five years。 Now�察�snow covered and erased all the clues that might have 
been  interpreted  as  signature�察 �proving  that  Allah  concurred  with  Bihzad  and 
me  on  the  issue  of  style  and  signature。  If  we  actually  mitted  an 
unpardonable  sin  by  illustrating  that  book!as  that  half´wit  had  maintained 
four  days  ago!even  if  we  had  done  so  unawares�察 �Allah  wouldn¨t  have 
bestowed this favor upon us miniaturists。 
That  night�察 �when  Elegant  Effendi  and  I  came  here�察 �the  snow  hadn¨t  yet 
begun to fall。 We could hear the howling of mongrels echo in the distance。 
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^Pray�察�for what reason have we e here�拭院�the unfortunate one had asked。 
^What do you plan to show me out here at this late hour�拭院�
^Just ahead lies a well�察�twelve paces beyond which I¨ve buried the money 
I¨ve been saving for years�察院�I said。 ^If you keep everything I¨ve explained to you 
secret�察�Enishte Effendi and I will see that you are happily rewarded。 ̄ 
^Am I to understand that you admit you knew what you were doing from 
the beginning�拭院�he said in agitation。 
^I admit it�察院�I lied obligingly。 
^You  acknowledge  the  picture  you¨ve  made  is  in  fact  a  desecration�察 �don¨t 
you�拭院 �he  said  innocently。  ^It¨s  heresy�察 �a  sacrilege  that  no  decent  man  would 
have  the  gall  to  mit。  You¨re  going  to  burn  in  the  pits  of  Hell。  Your 
suffering and pain will never diminish!and you¨ve made me an acplice。 ̄ 
As I listened to him�察�I sensed with horror how his words had such strength 
and gravity that�察�willingly or not�察�people would heed them�察�hoping that they 
would  prove  true  about  miserable  creatures  other  than  themselves。  Many 
rumors like this about Enishte Effendi had begun to fly due to the secrecy of 
the book he was making and the money he was willing to pay!and because 
Master  Osman�察 �the  Head  Illuminator�察 �despised  him。  It  occurred  to  me  that 
perhaps  my  brother  gilder�察 �Elegant�察 �had  with  sly  intent  used  these  facts  to 
buttress his false accusations。 To what degree was he being honest�拭�
I  had  him  repeat  the  claims  that  pitted  us  against  each  other�察 �and  as  he 
spoke�察�he didn¨t mince his words。 He seemed to be provoking me to cover up a 
mistake�察�as during our apprentice years�察�when the goal was to avoid a beating 
by  Master  Osman。  Back  then�察 �I  found  his  sincerity  convincing。  As  an 
apprentice�察�his eyes would widen as they did now�察�but back then they hadn¨t 
yet dimmed from the labor of embellishing。 But finally I hardened my heart�察�
he was prepared to confess everything to everyone。 
^Do listen to me�察院�I said with forced exasperation。 ^We make illuminations�察�
create  border  designs�察 �draw  frames  onto  pages�察 �we  brightly  ornament  page 
after  page  with  lovely  tones  of  gold�察 �we  make  the  greatest  of  paintings�察 �we 
adorn armoires and boxes。 We¨ve done nothing else for years。 It is our calling。 
They mission paintings from us�察�ordering us to arrange a ship�察�an antelope 
or a sultan within the borders of a particular frame�察�demanding a certain style 
of bird�察�a certain type of figure�察�take this particular scene from the story�察�forget 
about such´and´such。 Whatever it is they demand�察�we do it。  ̄Listen�察亜�Enishte 
Effendi said to me�察 �here�察�draw a horse of your own imagining�察�right here。^ For 
three days�察�like the great artists of old�察�I sketched hundreds of horses so I might 
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e to know exactly what  ̄a horse of my own imagining` was。 To accustom 
my hand�察�I drew a series of horses on a coarse sheet of Samarkand paper。^ 
I took these sketches out and showed them to Elegant。 He looked at them 
with  interest  and�察 �leaning  close  to  the  paper�察 �began  to  study  the  black  and 
white horses in the faint moonlight。 ^The old masters of Shiraz and Herat�察院�I 
said�察 �claimed that a miniaturist would have to sketch horses unceasingly for 
fifty  years  to  be  able  to  truly  depict  the  horse  that  Allah  envisioned  and 
desired。 They claimed that the best picture of a horse should be drawn in the 
dark�察 �since  a  true  miniaturist  would  go  blind  working  over  that  fifty´year 
period�察�but in the process�察�his hand would memorize the horse。 ̄ 
The innocent expression on his face�察�the one I¨d also seen long ago�察�when 
we  were  children�察 �told  me  that  he¨d  bee  pletely  absorbed  in  my 
horses。 
^They  hire  us�察 �and  we  try  to  make  the  most  mysterious�察 �the  most 
unattainable horse�察�just as the old masters did。 There¨s nothing more to it。 It¨s 
unjust of them to hold us responsible for anything more than the illustration。 ̄ 
^I¨m  not  sure  that¨s  correct�察院 �he  said。  ^We�察 �too�察 �have  responsibilities  and 
our own will。 I fear no one but Allah。 It was He who provided us with reason 
that we might distinguish Good from Evil。 ̄ 
It was an appropriate response。 
^Allah  sees  and  knows  all´ ̄  I  said  in  Arabic。  ^He¨ll  know  that  you  and  I�察�
we¨ve done this work without being aware of what we were doing。 Who will 
you notify about Enishte Effendi�拭�Aren¨t you aware that behind this affair rests 
the will of His Excellency Our Sultan�拭院�
Silence。 
I  wondered  whether  he  was  really  such  a  buffoon  or  whether  his  loss  of 
posure and ranting had sprung out of a sincere fear of Allah。 
We  stopped  at  the  mouth  of  the  well。  In  the  darkness�察 �I  vaguely  caught 
sight of his eyes and could see that he was scared。 I pitied him。 But it was too 
late for that。 I prayed to God to give me one more sign that the man standing 
before me was not only a dim´witted coward�察�but an unredeemable disgrace。 
^Count off twelve steps and dig�察院�I said。 
^Then�察�what will you do�拭院�
^I¨ll explain it all to Enishte Effendi�察�and he¨ll burn the pictures。 What other 
recourse is there�拭�If one of Nusret Hoja¨s followers hears of such an allegation�察�
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nothing  will  remain  of  us  or  the  book´arts  workshop。  Are  you  familiar  with 
any of the Erzurumis�拭�Accept this money so that we can be certain you won¨t 
inform on us。 ̄ 
^What is the money contained in�拭院�
^There  are  seventy´five  Veian  gold  pieces  inside  an  old  ceramic  pickle 
jar。 ̄ 
The Veian ducats made good sense�察�but where had I e up with the 
ceramic pickle jar�拭�It was so foolish it was believable。 I was thereby reassured 
that  God  was  with  me  and  had  given  me  a  sign。  My  old  panion 
apprentice�察�who¨d grown greedier with each passing year�察�had already started 
excitedly counting off the twelve steps in the direction I indicated。 
There were two things on my mind at that moment。 First of all�察�there were 
no  Veian  coins  or  anything  of  the  sort  buried  there�  �If  I  didn¨t  e  up 
with  some  money  this  buffoon  would  destroy  us。  I  suddenly  felt  like 
embracing  the  oaf  and  kissing  his  cheeks  as  I  sometimes  did  when  we  were 
apprentices�察 �but  the  years  had  e  between  us�  �Second�察 �I  was  preoccupied 
with  figuring  out  how  we  were  going  to  dig。  With  our  fingernails�拭 �But  this 
contemplation�察�if you could call it that�察�lasted only a wink in time。 
Panicking�察�I grabbed a stone that lay beside the well。 While he was still on 
the seventh or eighth step�察�I caught up to him and struck him on the back of 
his head with all my strength。 I struck him so swiftly and brutally that I was 
momentarily startled�察�as if the blow had landed on my own head。 Aye�察�I felt 
his pain。 
Instead of anguishing over what I¨d done�察�I wanted to finish the job quickly。 
He¨d begun thrashing about on the ground and my panic deepened further。 
Long  after  I¨d  dropped  him  into  the  well�察 �I  contemplated  how  the 
crudeness of my deed did not in the least befit the grace of a miniaturist。 
 
 
   
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I AM YOUR BELOVED UNCLE 
 
I  am  Black¨s  maternal  uncle�察 �his  enishte�察 �but  others  also  call  me  ^Enishte。 ̄ 
There  was  a  time  when  Black¨s  mother  encouraged  him  to  address  me  as 
^Enishte  Effendi�察院 �and  later�察 �not  only  Black�察 �but  everyone  began  referring  to 
me that way。 Thirty years ago�察�after we¨d moved to the dark and humid street 
shaded by chestnut and linden trees beyond the Aksaray district�察�Black began 
to make frequent visits to our house。 That was our residence before this one。 If 
I  were  away  on  summer  campaign  with  Mahmut  Pasha�察 �I¨d  return  in  the 
autumn to discover that Black and his mother had taken refuge in our home。 
Black¨s  mother�察 �may  she  rest  in  peace�察 �was  the  older  sister  of  my  dearly 
departed wife。 There were times on winter evenings I¨d e home to find my 
wife  and  his  mother  embracing  and  tearfully  consoling  each  other。  Black¨s 
father�察 �who  could  never  maintain  his  teaching  posts  at  the  remote  little 
religious schools where he taught�察�was ill´tempered�察�angry and had a weakness 
for drink。 Black was six years old at the time�察�he¨d cry when his mother cried�察�
quiet  down  when  his  mother  fell  silent  and  regarded  me�察 �his  Enishte�察 �with 
apprehension。 
It  pleases  me  to  see  him  before  me  now�察 �a  determined�察 �mature  and 
respectful nephew。 The respect he shows me�察�the care with which he kisses my 
hand and presses it to his forehead�察�the way�察�for example�察�he said�察 �Purely for 
red�察院�when he presented me with the Mongol inkpot as a gift�察�and his polite 
and demure habit of sitting before me with his knees mindfully together�察�all of 
this not only announces that he is the sensible grown man he aspires to be�察�
but it reminds me that I am indeed the venerable elder I aspire to be。 
He shares a likeness with his father�察�whom I¨ve seen once or twice�此�He¨s tall 
and thin�察�and makes slightly nervous yet being gestures with his arms and 
hands。 His custom of placing his hands on his knees or of staring deeply and 
intently  into  my  eyes  as  if  to  say�察  �I  understand�察 �I¨m  listening  to  you  with 
reverence ̄ when I tell him something of import�察�or the way he nods his head 
with  a  subtle  rhythm  matching  the  measure  of  my  words  are  all  quite 
appropriate。 Now that I¨ve reached this age�察�I know that true respect arises not 
from the heart�察�but from discrete rules and deference。 
During  the  years  Black¨s  mother  brought  him  frequently  to  our  house 
under  every  pretense  because  she  anticipated  a  future  for  him  here�察 �I 
understood that books pleased him�察�and this brought us together。 As those in 
the  house  used  to  put  it�察 �he  would  serve  as  my  ^apprentice。 ̄  I  explained  to 
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him how miniaturists in Shiraz had created a new style by raising the horizon 
line clear to the top of the border�察�and that while everyone depicted Mejnun 
in  a  wretched  state  in  the  desert�察 �crazed  with  love  for  his  Leyla�察 �the  great 
master  Bihzad  was  better  able  to  convey  Mejnun¨s  loneliness  by  portraying 
him  walking  among  groups  of  women  cooking�察 �attempting  to  ignite  logs  by 
blowing on them or walking between tents。 I remarked how absurd it was that 
most  of  the  illustrators  who  depicted  the  moment  when  H┨srev  spied  the 
naked Shirin bathing in a lake at midnight had whimsically colored the lovers¨ 
horses and clothes without having read Nizami¨s poem�察�my point being that a 
miniaturist who took up a brush without the care and diligence to read the 
text he was illustrating was motivated by nothing more than greed。 
I¨m delighted now to see that Black has acquired another essential virtue�此�
To  avoid  disappointment  in  art�察 �one  mustn¨t  treat  it  as  a  career。  Despite 
whatever great artistic sense and talent a man might possess�察�he ought to seek 
money and power elsewhere to avoid forsaking his art when he fails to receive 
proper pensation for his gifts and efforts。 
Black recounted how he¨d met one by one all of the master illustrators and 
calligraphers  of  Tabriz  by  making  books  for  pashas�察 �wealthy  Istanbulites  and 
patrons  in  the  provinces。  All  these  artists�察 �I  learned�察 �were  impoverished  and 
overe by the futility of their lot。 Not only in Tabriz�察�but in Mashhad and 
Aleppo�察 �many  miniaturists  had  abandoned  working  on  books  and  begun 
making  odd  single´leaf  pictures!curiosities  that  would  please  European 
travelers!even   obscene   drawings。   Rumor   has   it   that   the   illuminated 
manuscript Shah Abbas presented to Our Sultan during the Tabriz peace treaty 
has  already  been  taken  apart  so  its  pages  could  be  used  for  another  book。 
Supposedly�察�the Emperor of Hindustan�察�Akbar�察�was throwing so much money 
around  for  a  large  new  book  that  the  most  gifted  illustrators  of  Tabriz  and 
Kazvin quit what they were doing and flocked to his palace。 
As he told me all of this�察�he pleasantly interjected other stories as well�察�for 
example�察�he described with a smile the entertaining story of a Mehdi forgery 
or  the  frenzy  that  erupted  among  the  Uzbeks  when  the  idiot  prince  sent  to 
them by the Safavids as a hostage to peace fell feverishly ill and dropped dead 
within three days。 Even so�察�I could tell from the shadow that fell across his face 
that the dilemma to which neither of us referred�察�but which troubled us both�察�
had yet to be resolved。 
Naturally�察�Black�察�like every young man who frequented our house or heard 
what others had to say about us�察�or who knew about my beautiful daughter�察�
Shekure�察�from hearsay�察�had fallen in love with her。 Perhaps I didn¨t consider it 
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dangerous  enough  to  warrant  my  attention  back  then�察 �but  everyone!
including many who¨d never laid eyes on her!fell in love with my daughter�察�
that belle of belles。 Black¨s affliction was the overwhelming passion of an ill´
fated youth who had free access to our house�察�who was accepted and well liked 
in our home and who had the opportunity actually to see Shekure。 He did not 
bury  his  love�察 �as  I  hoped  he  would�察 �but  made  the  mistake  of  revealing  his 
extreme passion to my daughter。 
As a result�察�he pletely。 
I  assumed  that  Black  now  also  knew  how  three  years  after  he¨d  left 
Istanbul�察 �my  daughter  married  a  spahi  cavalryman�察 �at  the  height  of  her 
loveliness�察�and that this soldier�察�having fathered two boys but still bereft of any 
mon sense�察�had gone off on a campaign never to return again。 No one had 
heard from the cavalryman in four years。 I gathered he was aware of this�察�not 
only  because  such  gossip  spreads  fast  in  Istanbul�察 �but  because  during  the 
silences that passed between us�察�I felt he¨d learned the whole story long ago�察�
judging by the way he looked into my eyes。 Even at this moment�察�as he casts 
an  eye  at  the  Book  of  the  Soul�察 �which  stands  open  on  the  folding  X´shaped 
reading  stand�察 �I  know  he¨s  listening  for  the  sounds  of  her  children  running 
through the house�察�I know he¨s aware that my daughter has returned here to 
her father¨s house with he
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