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through the house�察�I know he¨s aware that my daughter has returned here to 
her father¨s house with her two sons。 
I¨ve  neglected  to  mention  the  new  house  I  had  built  in  Black¨s  absence。 
Most  likely�察 �Black�察 �like  any  young  fellow  who¨d  set  his  mind  to  being  a 
man of wealth and prestige�察�considered it quite discourteous to broach such a 
subject。  Still�察 �when  we  entered�察 �I  told  him  on  the  staircase  that  the  second 
floor was always less humid�察�and that moving upstairs had served to ease the 
pains in my joints。 When I said ^the second floor�察院�I felt oddly embarrassed�察�
but  let  me  tell  you�此 �Men  with  much  less  money  than  I�察 �even  simple  spahi 
cavalrymen  with  tiny  military  fiefs�察 �will  soon  be  able  to  build  two´story 
houses。 
We  were  in  the  room  with  the  blue  door  that  I  used  as  the  painting 
workshop in winter�察�and I sensed that Black was aware of Shekure¨s presence 
in the adjacent room。 I at once disclosed to him the matter that inspired the 
letter I¨d sent to Tabriz�察�inviting him to Istanbul。 
^Just as you did in concert with the calligraphers and miniaturists of Tabriz�察�
I�察�too�察�have been preparing an illustrated manuscript�察院�I said。 ^My client is�察�in 
fact�察 �His  Excellency  Our  Sultan�察 �the  Foundation  of  the  World。  Because  this 
book is a secret�察�Our Sultan has disbursed payment to me under cover of the 
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Head Treasurer。 And I have e to an understanding with each of the most 
talented  and  acplished  artists  of  Our  Sultan¨s  atelier。  I  have  been  in  the 
process  of  missioning  one  of  them  to  illustrate  a  dog�察 �another  a  tree�察 �a 
third I¨ve charged with making border designs and clouds on the horizon�察�and 
yet  another  is  responsible  for  the  horses。  I  wanted  the  things  I  depicted  to 
represent  Our  Sultan¨s  entire  world�察 �just  as  in  the  paintings  of  the  Veian 
masters。 But unlike the Veians�察�my work would not merely depict material 
objects�察 �but  naturally  the  inner  riches�察 �the  joys  and  fears  of  the  realm  over 
which Our Sultan rules。 If I ended up including the picture of a gold coin�察�it 
was  to  belittle  money�察 �I  included  Death  and  Satan  because  we  fear  them。  I 
don¨t  know  what  the  rumors  are  about。  I  wanted  the  immortality  of  a  tree�察�
the weariness of a horse and the vulgarity of a dog to represent His Excellency 
Our  Sultan  and  His  worldly  realm。  I  also  wanted  my  cadre  of  illustrators�察�
nicknamed   ̄Stork�察亜  �Olive�察亜  �Elegant`  and  ^Butterfly�察院 �to  select  subjects  of 
their  own  choosing。  On  even  the  coldest�察 �most  forbidding  winter  evenings�察�
one  of  my  Sultan¨s  illustrators  would  secretly  visit  to  show  me  what  he¨d 
prepared for the book。 
^What kind of pictures were we making�拭�Why were we illustrating them in 
that way�拭�I can¨t really answer you at present。 Not because I¨m withholding a 
secret from you�察�and not because I won¨t eventually tell you。 It¨s as though I 
myself don¨t quite know what the pictures mean。 I do�察�however�察�know what 
kind of paintings they ought to be。 ̄ 
Four months after I sent my letter�察�I heard from the barber located on the 
street where we used to live that Black had returned to Istanbul�察�and�察�in turn�察�I 
invited him to our house。 I was fully aware that my story bore a promise of 
both sorrow and bliss that would bind the two of us together。 
^Every  picture  serves  to  tell  a  story�察院 �I  said。  ^The  miniaturist�察 �in  order  to 
beautify the manuscript we read�察�depicts the most vital scenes�此�the first time 
lovers  lay  eyes  on  each  other�察 �the  hero  R┨stem  cutting  off  the  head  of  a 
devilish monster�察�R┨stem¨s grief when he realizes that the stranger he¨s killed 
is  his  son�察 �the  love´crazed  Mejnun  as  he  roams  a  desolate  and  wild  Nature 
among  lions�察 �tigers�察 �stags  and  jackals�察�the  anguish  of  Alexander�察 �who�察 �having 
e  to  the  forest  before  a  battle  to  divine  its  oute  from  the  birds�察�
witnesses  a  great  falcon  tear  apart  his  woodcock。  Our  eyes�察 �fatigued  from 
reading these tales�察�rest upon the pictures。 If there¨s something within the text 
that  our  intellect  and  imagination  are  at  pains  to  conjure�察 �the  illustration 
es at once to our aid。 The images are the story¨s blossoming in color。 But 
painting without its acpanying story is an impossibility。 
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^Or so I used to think�察院�I added�察�as if regretfully。 ^But this is indeed quite 
possible。  Two  years  ago  I  traveled  once  again  to  Venice  as  the  Sultan¨s 
ambassador。 I observed at length the portraits that the Veian masters had 
made。  I  did  so  without  knowing  to  which  scene  and  story  the  pictures 
belonged�察�and I struggled to extract the story from the image。 One day�察�I came 
across a painting hanging on a palazzo wall and was dumbfounded。 
^More  than  anything�察 �the  image  was  of  an  individual�察 �somebody  like 
myself。 It was an infidel�察�of course�察�not one of us。 As I stared at him�察�though�察�I 
felt as if I resembled him。 Yet he didn¨t resemble me at all。 He had a full round 
face  that  seemed  to  lack  cheekbones�察 �and  moreover�察 �he  had  no  trace  of  my 
marvelous chin。 Though he didn¨t look anything like me�察�as I gazed upon the 
picture�察�for some reason�察�my heart fluttered as if it were my own portrait。 
^I learned from the Veian gentleman who was giving me a tour through 
his palazzo that the portrait was of a friend�察�a nobleman like himself。 He had 
included whatever was significant in his life in his portrait�此�In the background 
landscape  visible  from  the  open  window  there  was  a  farm�察 �a  village  and  a 
blending  of  color  which  made  a  realistic´looking  forest。  Resting  on  the  table 
before the nobleman were a clock�察�books�察�Time�察�Evil�察�Life�察�a calligraphy pen�察�a 
map�察 �a  pass�察 �boxes  containing  gold  coins�察 �bric´a´brac�察 �odds  and  ends�察�
inscrutable  yet  distinguishable  things  that  were  probably  included  in  many 
pictures�察 �shadows  of  jinns  and  the  Devil  and  also�察 �the  picture  of  the  man¨s 
stunningly beautiful daughter as she stood beside her father。 
^What  was  the  narrative  that  this  representation  was  meant  to  embellish 
and plete�拭�As I regarded the work�察�I slowly sensed that the underlying tale 
was the picture itself。 The painting wasn¨t the extension of a story at all�察�it was 
something in its own right。 
^I  never  forgot  the  painting  that  bewildered  me  so。  I  left  the  palazzo�察�
returned to the house where I was staying as a guest and pondered the picture 
the entire night。 I�察�too�察�wanted to be portrayed in this manner。 But�察�no�察�that 
wasn¨t appropriate�察�it was Our Sultan who ought to be thus portrayed� �Our 
Sultan ought to be rendered along with everything He owned�察�with the things 
that  represented  and  constituted  His  realm。  I  settled  on  the  notion  that  a 
manuscript could be illustrated according to this idea。 
^The  Veian  virtuoso  had  made  the  nobleman¨s  picture  in  such  a  way 
that you would immediately know which particular nobleman it was。 If you¨d 
never seen that man�察�if they told you to pick him out of a crowd of a thousand 
others�察�you¨d be able to select the correct man with the help of that portrait。 
The  Veian  masters  had  discovered  painting  techniques  with  which  they 
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could distinguish any one man from another!without relying on his outfit or 
medals�察 �just  by  the  distinctive  shape  of  his  face。  This  was  the  essence  of 
 ̄portraiture。^ 
^If your face were depicted in this fashion only once�察�no one would ever be 
able to forget you�察�and if you were far away�察�someone who laid eyes on your 
portrait  would  feel  your  presence  as  if  you  were  actually  nearby。  Those  who 
had never seen you alive�察�even years after your death�察�could e face´to´face 
with you as if you were standing before them。 ̄ 
We remained silent for a long time。 A chilling light the color of the iciness 
outside filtered through the upper part of the small hallway window facing the 
street�察�this was the window whose lower shutters were never opened�察�which 
I¨d recently paned over with a piece of cloth dipped in beeswax。 
^There was a miniaturist�察院�I said。 ^He would e here just like the other 
artists for the sake of Our Sultan¨s secret book�察�and we would work together 
till dawn。 He did the best of the gilding。 That unfortunate Elegant Effendi�察�he 
left here one night never to arrive at home。 I¨m afraid they might have done 
him in�察�that poor master gilder of mine。 ̄ 
 
 
   
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I AM ORHAN 
 
Black asked�此 �Have they indeed killed him�拭院�
This  Black  was  tall�察 �skinny  and  a  little  frightening。  I  was  walking  toward 
them where they sat talking in the second´floor workshop with the blue door 
when  my  grandfather  said�察  �They  might  have  done  him  in。 ̄  Then  he  caught 
sight of me。 ^What are you doing here�拭院�
He  looked  at  me  in  such  a  way  that  I  climbed  onto  his  lap  without 
answering。 Then he put me back down right away。 
^Kiss Black¨s hand�察院�he said。 
I kissed the back of his hand and touched it to my forehead。 It had no smell。 
^He¨s  quite  charming�察院 �Black  said  and  kissed  me  on  my  cheek。  ^One  day 
he¨ll be a brave young man。 ̄ 
^This  is  Orhan�察 �he¨s  six。  There¨s  also  an  older  one�察 �Shevket�察 �who¨s  seven。 
That one¨s quite a stubborn little child。 ̄ 
^I  went  back  to  the  old  street  in  Aksaray�察院 �said  Black。  ^It  was  cold�察�
everything was covered in snow and ice。 But it was as if nothing had changed 
at all。 ̄ 
^Alas�   �Everything   has   changed�察  �everything   has   bee   worse�察院  �my 
grandfather  said。  ^Significantly  worse。 ̄  He  turned  to  me。  ^Where¨s  your 
brother�拭院�
^He¨s with our mentor�察�the master binder。 ̄ 
^So�察�what are you doing here�拭院�
^The master said�察 �Fine work�察�you can go now` to me。^ 
^You made your way back here alone�拭院�asked my grandfather。 ^Your older 
brother  ought  to  have  acpanied  you。 ̄  Then  he  said  to  Black�此  �There¨s  a 
binder  friend  of  mine  with  whom  they  work  twice  a  week  after  their  Koran 
school。 They serve as his apprentices�察�learning the art of binding。 ̄ 
^Do you like to make illustrations like your grandfather�拭院�asked Black。 
I gave him no answer。 
^All right then�察院�said my grandfather。 ^Leave us be�察�now。 ̄ 
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The heat from the open brazier that warmed the room was so nice that I 
didn¨t want to leave。 Smelling the paint and glue�察�I stood still for a moment。 I 
could also smell coffee。 
^Yet  does  illustrating  in  a  new  way  signify  a  new  way  of  seeing�拭院 �my 
grandfather began。 ^This is the reason why they¨ve murdered that poor gilder 
despite the fact that he worked in the old style。 I¨m not even certain he¨s been 
killed�察 �only  that  he¨s  missing。  They¨re  illustrating  a  memorative  story  in 
verse�察 �a  Book  of  Festivities�察 �for  Our  Sultan  by  order  of  the  Head  Illuminator 
Master  Osman。  Each  of  the  miniaturists  works  at  his  own  home。  Master 
Osman�察�however�察�occupies himself at the palace book´arts workshop。 To begin 
with�察�I want you to go there and observe everything。 I worry that the others�察�
that  is�察 �the  miniaturists�察 �have  ended  up  falling  out  with  and  slaying  one 
another。  They  go  by  the  workshop  names  that  Head  Illuminator  Master 
Osman  gave  them  years  ago�此 �Butterfly�察亜  �Olive�察亜  �Stork`´You¨re  also  to  go 
and observe them as they work in their homes。^ 
Instead  of  heading  downstairs�察 �I  spun  around。  There  was  a  noise  ing 
from  the  next  room  with  the  built´in  closet  where  Hayriye  slept。  I  went  in。 
Inside there was no Hayriye�察�just my mother。 She was embarrassed to see me。 
She stood half in the closet。 
^Where have you been�拭院�she asked。 
But she knew where I¨d been。 In the back of the closet there was a peephole 
through which you could see my grandfather¨s workshop�察�and if its door were 
open�察�the wide hallway and my grandfather¨s bedroom across the hall by the 
staircase!if�察�of course�察�his bedroom door were open。 
^I was with grandfather�察院�I said。 ^Mother�察�what are you doing in here�拭院�
^Didn¨t I tell you that your grandfather had a guest and that you weren¨t to 
bother them�拭院�She scolded me�察�but not very loud�察�because she didn¨t want the 
guest to hear。 ^What were they doing�拭院�she asked afterward�察�in a sweet voice。 
^They  were  seated。  Not  with  the  paints  though。  Grandfather  spoke�察 �the 
other listened。 ̄ 
^In what manner was he seated�拭院�
I  dropped  to  the  floor  and  imitated  the  guest�此  �I¨m  a  very  serious  man 
now�察�Mother�察�look。 I¨m listening to my grandfather with knit eyebrows�察�as if I 
were  listening  to  the  birth  epic  being  recited。  I¨m  nodding  my  head  in  time 
now�察�very seriously like that guest。 ̄ 
^Go downstairs�察院�my mother said�察 �call for Hayriye at once。 ̄ 
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She sat down and began writing on a small piece of paper on the writing 
board she¨d taken up。 
^Mother�察�what are you writing�拭院�
^Be quick�察�now。 Didn¨t I tell you to go downstairs and call for Hayriye�拭院�
I went down to the kitchen。 My brother�察�Shevket�察�was back。 Hayriye had put 
before him a plate of the pilaf meant for the guest。 
^Traitor�察院�my brother said。 ^You just went off and left me with the Master。 I 
did all the folding for the bindings myself。 My fingers are bruised purple。 ̄ 
^Hayriye�察�my mother wants to see you。 ̄ 
^When I¨m done here�察�I¨m going to give you such a beating�察院�my brother 
said。 ^You¨ll pay for your laziness and treachery。 ̄ 
When Hayriye left�察�my brother stood and came after me threateningly�察�even 
before he¨d finished his pilaf。 I couldn¨t get away in time。 He grabbed my arm 
at the wrist and began twisting it。 
^Stop�察�Shevket�察�don¨t�察�you¨re hurting me。 ̄ 
^Are you ever going to shirk your duties again and leave�拭院�
^No�察�I won¨t ever leave。 ̄ 
^Swear to it。 ̄ 
^I swear。 ̄ 
^Swear on the Koran。 ̄ 
^´on the Koran。 ̄ 
He didn¨t let go of my arm。 He dragged me to the large copper tray that we 
used as a table for eating and forced me to my knees。 He was strong enough to 
eat his pilaf as he continued to twist my arm。 
^Quit torturing your brother�察�tyrant�察院�said Hayriye。 She covered herself and 
was heading outside。 ^Leave him be。 ̄ 
^Mind your own affairs�察�slave girl�察院�my brother said。 He was still twisting 
my arm。 ^Where are you off to�拭院�
^To buy lemons�察院�Hayriye said。 
^You¨re a liar�察院�my brother said。 ^The cupboard is full of lemons。 ̄ 
As he had eased up on my arm�察�I was suddenly able to free myself。 I kicked 
him  and  grabbed  a  candleholder  by  its  base�察 �but  he  pounced  on  me�察�
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smothering  me。  He  knocked  the  candleholder  away�察 �and  the  copper  tray  fell 
over。 
^You two scourges of God� 院�my mother said。 She kept her voice lowered so 
the  guest  wouldn¨t  hear。  How  had  she  passed  before  the  open  door  of  the 
workshop�察�through the hallway�察�and e downstairs with
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